okay, so as the title insinuated, march was literally insane. in fact, i am writing to tell you about it from the hospital, next to my dad, who’s been in here for going on 18 days as i type. march has been a month of personal testing. strength of family, support from a daughter, needing my husband … all these things have been at full focus in march. as a result … i haven’t taken good care of myself.
i wish i could say i mastered this stressful time but its just not the case. you see, i began this journey + changed my life 1 year and 3 months ago. however, with the exception of a few “tough times” i’ve never been truly tested with serious personal stress. actual pressure. guess what? i don’t handle it well.
so if i am honest, that’s not truly fair. here’s what i am good at. i am an excellent daughter. i bend over backwards without thinking twice. in fact, i don’t even consider it bending over backwards at all. i am the rock of my family. i am the one they call, the one they depend on. its my favorite thing about myself. what i am not great at? taking care of myself.
my husband does this to the best of his abilities but i can be brutal when under pressure. i think i know best + most of the time refuse to listen to anyone else. my husband also shares my selfless qualities, even with my own family so sometimes we forget to take care of ourselves at the same time.
needless to say, march kicked my ass. as we enter into april, i am still sitting by my dad’s side in the hospital but i packed my bag with healthy snacks + meals, brought resistance bands to do easy seated exercises + i am getting up + walking around every 30 minutes or so.
do what you need to do to remain true to who you are as a person, as a member of a family, as a partner, but also remember that you need to be at your best to give the best to those around you. happy spring loves. xoxo